Heart'n'Soul
Thursday, February 24, 2011
You, Me and Mumbai!
A truly long day, crammed with the pessimism born out of the games people play, had perched itself contentedly on my mind and there was suddenly nothing I looked forward to in tomorrow. It was a blank canvas - the one in front of me – and the one in my mind and my heart.
I was on my way back, and I saw you once again - just like I did everyday, in all your diverse avatars- incredibly stunning but never enticing enough to hold me and my thoughts. You stared back with the same alluring anticipation. But today there was something more to you. Something different, something just so... just something... and I decided to give you a chance.
I asked the cab driver to stop and got down. You watched me with your mystery laden face as I smiled and walked slowly towards you. I settled my bag on the bench, removed my shoes and climbed on the platform next to you. As I stood up and took a closer look at you, I realized what I had been missing, feeling glad to have let go of the inhibitions of being with you all alone.
You stirred a little as I gazed at you intently. With uncountable secrets hidden within, you finally seemed to smile at me. The life in that smile made me aware of the surreal backdrop of where I stood - the windswept hours of darkness, the glorious sky dazzling with the milky white grandeur of the moon and the stars swathed in the misty veil of its radiance.
Mesmerized, I stood still, admiring you - unable to take my eyes off the shimmering infinity of the silver expanse on your surface. A smile spread on my face as the wind played with my hair, kissing me tenderly and whispering in my ears the sweet salty nothings that you sent my way. You stirred a little more, engendering the half-hushed waves, of motion splashed with trembling crumbs of froth. Blended with the tranquility that knew no bounds, seeping softly in every single inch of my soul, you drenched me with your serenity and overwhelmed all my senses with your fragrance.
Thanks... Thanks a lot oh dear sea - thanks for this - for bringing peace to me where there is none and for being with me when there is no one.
Labels: happy high, Life, marine drive, mumbai, New place, ocean, random, sea, soul, think, travel, work
Thursday, April 9, 2009
For Now and Forever - V
Josh leaned against his car, nervous as hell... waiting for Grace to come out of her office complex. His eyes constantly shifting between the exit gate and his watch. He felt the same anxiety every time he came to see her… Every time.
Moments later, Grace emerged from the gate. Smiling, as always. Grace, not just by name... but elegance personified. Something lit up inside him the moment he saw her walking towards him.
She came and hugged him "Hello Happiness!” planting a cheerful peck on his check.
Amused, he asked "Oh Wow! What was that for?"
Grace "Just like that!"
Josh "Oh Common, you never do that. Now out with it."
Grace looked at Josh, her grin widening "No really, for no reason."
Josh "No No No. There IS something, tell me... NOW"
Grace "No"Josh "Yes"
Grace "No"
Josh "Yes"
Grace "No"
Josh "Yes"
Grace "No"
Josh "Yes! Yes! Yes!"
Grace "Well! If you really want to know..."
Josh "Yeaaaah... I really want to know..."
Josh looked at her surprised and mystified "So?"
Puzzled, he opened up the crumpled paper to read it. It said "Stop searching, happiness is just next to you."
He looked at her with all the love in his heart and smiled with all the warmth in his soul. He gently held her hand and locked her close to his heart, in a tender embrace.
In this moment, he knew that it was either her or no one.
In this moment, he did not know why and how... but he just knew.
In this moment, he knew he wanted to hold her, just like that, next to his heart... For Now and Forever.
Ding Dong - The huge clock tower struck 7, startling Josh as always.
He looked at the exit gate, not nervous at all… waiting for her, as the crowd started pouring out.
In this moment, he knew she would never surface from the crowd… he knew that his heart will always long for it but he will never be able to hold her again…
In this moment… he knew.
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More from the series - For Now and Forever:
For Now and Forever - I: If Only...
For Now and Forever - II: PS: I Love You
For Now and Forever - III: You've Got Mail
For Now and Forever - IV: Shall We Dance
For Now and Forever - V: A Lot Like Love
For Now and Forever - VI: As Good As It Gets
For Now and Forever - VII: Gone With The Wind
For Now and Forever - VIII: Message In A Bottle
Labels: broken heart, desire, Heart break, hurt, Letting go, Life, Love, memories, Missing you, moving on, nostalgia, romance, soul, think, want
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Love - for real
The day has ended and its time to sleep. She is drained and defeated in her war against herself. But, her last thoughts of the day still reach out to him. Just before she sleeps, there is a small, short prayer that she says in her head... every night..."I hope you are fine and if you are not, then I hope you will be fine soon. May god bless you. Amen!"
And as she closes here eyes, tears welling up in them, she doesn’t forget to remind herself - "I love him, he loves me not… I love him, he loves me not … I love him… “
…and the worthless drop of saline water starts it never ending journey once again, just like the last night, carrying a prayer that doesn’t reach anywhere, the one that is never answered, but the one that doesn’t dry up like its carrier.
Love - it is
For real - very much
Help Me Fall - By Mark Wills
I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely holding on
And letting go with all my might
There's a part of me that's empty
I know only love can fill
I'm afraid I'll never find it
And I'm scared to death I will
Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall
I've been holding conversations
When I haven't said a word
I've been speaking with my silence
And praying that you heard
I'm a walking contradiction
I'd hate to be my heart
It keeps trying not to love you
But it don't know where to start
Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall
I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely holding on
Letting go with all my might
Labels: bleed, broken heart, contradiction, desire, Heart break, hurt, Letting go, Life, Love, moving on, romance, soul, think, want
Monday, July 28, 2008
Sing Along :-)
Awaarapan - Jism
Kuch is tarah - Aatif
Tera Mera Rishta - Aawarapan
Nothing else matters - Metallica
Hanging by a moment - Lifehouse
Everything I do - Bryan Adams
Everlong - Foofighters
Don't wanna miss a thing - Areosmith
It must have been love - Roxette
In the end - Linkin Park
Maa - TZP
Ab na ja - Euphoria
25 minutes - MLTR
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Wo kagaz ki kashti, Shaam se aankh mein, Main bhool jaon tumhein and woh khat ke purze - Jagjit Singh
Tum gaye - Machis
Pyar ke pal - KK
Most of the songs that I like and have mentioned here are close to my heart cuz of a reason...like “Pyar ke pal” by KK is a song I dedicated to my college team along with a small presentation. Each one of us cries every time we look at that small clip...here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_B8pN9VIOI
Then there is “Everything I do” by Bryan Adams, I know its one song that everyone has heard a lot of times n is probably comparable to a cliché but this ones very close to my heart cuz this was my first valentines day romantic dance.
“Hanging by a moment” by Lifehouse is the only song someone dedicated to me. I did not even know about it till then and now I can hear it as many times as possible.
The song Aawarapan from the movie Jism is one of those songs that does something to me…I don know what…I can hear it over and over and still not get bored. It’s just so calm….a little depressing too but still…it’s got such a haunting melody
And then there is MAA from TZP. One of the most beautiful compositions I have ever heard in my life. Every word, every note in that song just simply moves me…would cry every time I heard it initially…now I just enjoy it, think of my mom and smile.
These are like the top of the list...there are many more, like a lot of you who dropped in Thanks to all of you for sharing your choices and insights.
