Heart'n'Soul

A truly long day, crammed with the pessimism born out of the games people play, had perched itself contentedly on my mind and there was suddenly nothing I looked forward to in tomorrow. It was a blank canvas - the one in front of me – and the one in my mind and my heart.

I was on my way back, and I saw you once again - just like I did everyday, in all your diverse avatars- incredibly stunning but never enticing enough to hold me and my thoughts. You stared back with the same alluring anticipation. But today there was something more to you. Something different, something just so... just something... and I decided to give you a chance.

I asked the cab driver to stop and got down. You watched me with your mystery laden face as I smiled and walked slowly towards you. I settled my bag on the bench, removed my shoes and climbed on the platform next to you. As I stood up and took a closer look at you, I realized what I had been missing, feeling glad to have let go of the inhibitions of being with you all alone.

You stirred a little as I gazed at you intently. With uncountable secrets hidden within, you finally seemed to smile at me. The life in that smile made me aware of the surreal backdrop of where I stood - the windswept hours of darkness, the glorious sky dazzling with the milky white grandeur of the moon and the stars swathed in the misty veil of its radiance.

Mesmerized, I stood still, admiring you - unable to take my eyes off the shimmering infinity of the silver expanse on your surface. A smile spread on my face as the wind played with my hair, kissing me tenderly and whispering in my ears the sweet salty nothings that you sent my way. You stirred a little more, engendering the half-hushed waves, of motion splashed with trembling crumbs of froth. Blended with the tranquility that knew no bounds, seeping softly in every single inch of my soul, you drenched me with your serenity and overwhelmed all my senses with your fragrance.

Thanks... Thanks a lot oh dear sea - thanks for this - for bringing peace to me where there is none and for being with me when there is no one.

Labels: happy high, Life, marine drive, mumbai, New place, ocean, random, sea, soul, think, travel, work

Hellos again... still from Colombo - And I cant help but mention that its still the thunder from down under.... sorry but really cant help!!!

Anyway, it’s been 3 weeks almost here and I have made some little progress in adjusting to the day to day activities and the social life here. It obviously can’t be the same as Delhi but its better here now w.r.t the initial week.

But I still do miss Mom, Dad, Chan, Abhi, Priyanka and Shombe a lot. Especially cuz I had spent so much time with all of them just before coming here. Was pretty much with them 24 hrs or so given my health issue. And now I haven’t even seen them in 3 weeks. Doesn’t feel right AT ALL!

It feels so funnily weird... like Shombe got full marks in his test and I should be giving him chocolates. We discussed it - thanks to the mobile - but I can’t do it like rite now. I wanna give him a huge hug (which he wud run away from making a face) and tell him how happy and proud I am! And I wish you were around - I miss our "watch a kiddies movie, eat at McDs and play at amoeba" outings. I miss being a kid cuz I can do that only with you.

Then here, I have to get up real early most mornings to make myself breakfast cuz I need to take the meds. And I can’t help but think that mom used to do that for me every single day. And not just this, when I was unwell she wud make special food and feed me too. She would prepare juice, khichdi and be ready with my meds on time. I feel so useless without her. A mother's love is really precious. Sometimes I would get all irritated and over burdened by her care but now... without her, I feel so unloved and uncared for. Like no one cares enough. She calls everyday and knows stuff even before I say anything. The day I went to the doc here for general consultation on my cough, she sent me a message saying hope u r fine and don’t have fever. I was amazed... totally surprised, rather shocked to see the sms. I mean, how did SHE know???? I think there's just something special about these people we call Mother.... Miss u mom, and love u so very much, wish u cud read this.

Dad - love u equally and miss you equally... life wudnt be even half as much fun and positive if you weren’t you... I miss your pranks, leg pulling, the fights for the TV couch, and especially your optimistic attitude. I guess I get my positivity from you... actually I am sure! On most days I would find those things irritating but that’s just cuz its fun to be bullied by you like a big brother and then try snatching the remote from you or sitting in your chair when u get up and then fight about that too. Totally love you :) MUAH

From here, I can’t see and admire Priyanka's new phone - BB Curve. This comes with a wink especially for Priyanka!!! No Chinese dinners, no soups floating in front of our eyes, no shopping at GIP - NOT EVEN WINDOW SHOPPING :( - and no movies... the girl talk we still manage :) I miss her chocolate shake so much!!! And the daily dose of - "you better sleep on time" ....lolz

And Abhi... well he’s busy at the client site too - so we hardly get to talk... not like he talked much anyways, but it used to be good enough to see his face like 2-3 times a week and bug him with my leg pulling.... and him getting back at me for that not instantly but some time later.... Abhi, this is probably one of the very few times that you will catch me saying this so be happy that I am accepting publically that you are not such a bad guy - lol. You are queer but yet so lovable!

I miss Chan, Sud and Fali too... but I guess not as much as others cuz we were mostly in touch thru the phone and email, and that we still are. Only fali and me both have more work these days so when I call she’s busy and when she calls I am busy... just bad timing I guess!

Someone asked me how am I such a friendly and loving person... while typing this today, it struck me - its cuz I have so much love around me, its flowing into my life with each of these people in their unique way. Thanks and Love you all!

Labels: Colombo, friends, Life, Missing you, New place, nostalgia, think, trip, work

Hullllloooooooooooo!!! to the bolg and the readers....

Greetings from Colombo... it’s 19th July, 2010 and I am sleepy and tired and I want to make sure I put it on my blog...hehehe! And for those of you who know me would have understood the context for the title of this blog. Just cudn't help naming it this ways!!!

Ok so here I am in a small city in a new type of "Pardes" - unlike bollywood where it only means USA... and recently in some exception cases UK and Australia(strictly exceptions)

The apartment here is good... fully furnished, spacious, good decor and one thing I love and would want in my house as well... the sliding door/window overlooking a great view. The clouds, the breeze and the drizzle that stopped before I was supposed to leave for work pretty much made up for a good start for the day ahead.

Colombo on first look seems like a mixture of Chennai and Goa... and I haven’t seen the beaches as yet so it’s just the architecture, colors, dressing, roads, shops and all that. The weather as of now is nice; clouds are around the corner all the time. But the pollution is not such a welcoming factor, especially when one is travelling in a tuktuk instead of the comfort of my "Lal Pari". Oh BTW, tuktuk means our standard auto in Delhi and Mumbai :D

I am still to understand the color coding that these tuktuks have - red, blue, green, yellow etc... but it costs 200 bucks to my office. Have learnt that in INR it means just 80 bucks, which is a short distance travel in Delhi but it sounded like a BOMB for an auto vis-a-vi the distance.... but well, like they say - when in Rome do as Romans do... so 200 SLR it is.

The vending machines and water coolers do not have glasses here and there is no CCD or Barista... which means no coffee for a while - till I either find a good cafe or buy myself a sipper. AND... till then I will die of this headache from lack of coffee. On top of it my hair is misbehaving and this is an understatement... but considering the humidity factor, maybe I can let it go. Hoping that it would settle down soon!!

The interesting thing I noticed is that here everyone uses glass bottles to store and drink water... and well, i said interesting cuz they are mostly alcohol bottles. I think it’s very amusing and scientifically safe at the same time ;D

Internet has not been setup as yet so I am right now just typing stuff on MSWord, probably will be posting it tomorrow, once the Internet is setup for me and if the BlogSpot is not blocked... else whenever.

Also, how can I forget to mention this when I am writing bout today, it’s an important important day .... two of my closest buddies were born today, more than 2 decades back... HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLS... this is for Shaifali and Neha... Love you my babies!

More from the Colombo later, back to documents, meetings, calls and more documents for now!

Labels: blogville, coffee, Colombo, New place, schedule, travel, trip, work

Sitting at Delhi airport, I can’t help but look around and notice how it has changed... rather transformed. It doesn’t look like anything it used to be... It changed for better. It’s more spacious, more comfortable, more organized, definitely cozier n warm as compared to the cold outside... BUT BUT BUT - extremely loud and noisy now... which I don’t like! "SABHI ATITHIYON SE NIVEDAN HAI...BLA BLAH BLAH... DHANYWAD" - DING DONG - “MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE...BLAH BLAH BLAH...WE WISH YOU A PLEASANT FLIGHT...THANK YOU!”

Someone spare me the trauma of the LOUD-Speakers!!! (pun intended)

The flight delay is not helping either, from 10:30 PM to 11 PM and now to 11:30 PM - which means I will be landing at 1:30 in the night. It Mumbai but still... I am hoping there wouldn’t be more delay. Call from Spicejet - Dear Customer, we would like to inform you.... blah blah blah -I wonder why she sounds so happy about the delay!!! its a DELAY for god's sake, not some prize money you are offering me :-x

I am wondering - since when did Delhi become so boring.... no good looking men around.... like hello - NOT EVEN ONE...tsk tsk...

And since when did I become so boring - I say so cuz I am sitting here logged in to my client's system trying to fine tune the payroll - that too when I m not getting even a penny out of it and nor is my company... what Irony I tell you!!!

I suddenly have located an empty laptop station... yeah there are plenty on Delhi airport now. Unfortunately the well educated people here behave like uneducated idiots and are using these so called laptop stations as their head rests - sleep stations to be precise.

I feel like having a coffee but leaving my stuff here is neither safe n nor recommended. And I certainly don’t want to drag the whole thing around. Though its just one bag n a laptop but still... I am feeling too lazy to be doing this. But its coffee... I think I will get up... ok here I go

And now I am back, my coffee with me, and one more hour to go before I board. Maybe I should have waited...

The process that I had started some half an hour back on client's system is still at 8.5% completion... Humph... I don want to land in Mumbai and work but at this rate it looks like I will have to... Darn the stupid server! Grrrrrrrrrrr! Urgh! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!

AND SOMEONE PLEASE REDUCE THE VOLUME OF THESE SPEAKERS.... It’s hurting my ears now... like someone’s put his/her fingers through my eyes and turned my brain around....yuck yuck yuck!

Huh - back to coffee! Got a call, thanks god for the distraction... Time to post n stop typing!

Labels: airport, coffee, delhi, random, think, time pass, travel, work