Wednesday, April 30, 2008
My Pride and Your Prejudice!!!
Have you ever been guilty of judging someone by his or her weight? Have you ever preferred a person who had an hour glass figures or the perfect V-shape built, over someone who totally blew you away with his or her personality, honesty, genuineness, caring attitude and great sense of humor. But you ignored them for someone who looked better; despite the fact that the not so hot one was the best PERSON you ever met?
Its funny how it applies more to women…I have met so many over weight as well as under weight men who are no where close to being the perfect hunks, but when it comes to the women they want, she should be the perfect face with the perfect body. Doesn't matter how they look and what they weigh!!!
I have not been able to understand till date why this is such a big issue and why someone “not so thin” is looked "down" upon, sometimes even by their very own friends. And it’s said with such a sneer as if it’s the biggest sin one could commit and so I should go kill myself for the shame of my pants being too tight.
I guess in today’s age, time is also an issue. There are too many options and too many people to look at and not enough time to REALLY know them. Therefore in the channel surfing way of life today, if you don’t like the look of someone, you switch the channel and move away.
And to all the girls and boys, who really do suffer from a low self-esteem because of this prejudice, let me tell you, you yourself are prejudiced about it and you are equally to be blamed. If you are a person who lets others make you feel any lesser because of your weigh, if someone makes you feel like you have to be overly thin and look like a super model and that looking and living like a real person is a shameful condition, then it's a prejudice you have against yourself.
And to all those so called friends who say “you will look great if you would lose a few pounds” or something like “hey don’t worry, you will find someone someday”… well you are prejudiced too…you may be my best friend but that doesn’t change it!! To them I say…”Don't worry, honey: I'm sure someone will come along who'll be glad to put up with your hateful personality for a chance to get a hold of your body. If it hasn't aged or gained any weight, that is!
I am who I am… If you like it, good for you…. If you don’t, good for me!!!
Speaking Dee Dee - II
Thursday, April 24, 2008
I do OR do I?
But then what is meant by "perfect partner"... the one we all keep looking for in all our relationships and still never find. I believe that it is because we are looking for the wrong thing... there is nothing like a "perfect" partner. It’s actually about finding the "right" partner. It is important to understand that no partner is or can be ideal. No two individuals can be alike. Therefore differences in thought, attitude, approach, communication - in every sphere, will remain. We need to ACCEPT this reality. And I believe that it comes on its own when you love someone truly. It might sound corny to some, clichéd to some and ridiculously romantic to some, but at the cost of sounding all that, I still believe in it and hence have no apprehensions in saying it. However, at the same time I also believe that love only makes it easier, but love is not the only ingredient. There is much more a relationship needs to survive.
And that’s exactly what scares me every time this topic is raised by family, friends and other self proclaimed "close" relatives who seem to have only one goal in their lives...my wedding. Why don’t they understand that it’s not that I don’t want to get married at all? I know that it’s beautiful if ones lucky enough to find someone who understands them cares for them and loves them. It’s probably the best thing in the world to have a life partner who’s your best friend too. But what if it’s not the case... what if your partners not "Right" for you and you end up being miserable for the rest of your life? How do you choose b/w being lonely or being with someone who makes your life difficult? Which ones worse?
I am not saying that love marriages are perfect. All marriages are a gamble. People change and so does the nature of the relationships they share. I know loads of couples who were great friends but their relationships did not work. Its like Hindi movies, you never know what will work. There is no sure shot formula.
Now this leads to another problem. Since everything is a gamble, and it’s probably the biggest one in life... What does one do? Keep getting in to relationships one after the other and moving on when things don go well. Or stay in a relationship that’s not working just for the sake of being in a relationship...keep dragging it and try to make it work since nothing is perfect. Or just don’t get in to any, stay single and not ready to mingle. Or date your best friend. Or try something online...blah blah blah
Even if you are extremely lucky and find someone who’s a perfect fit for you. It still doesn’t end here. Marriage is very much like a living organism: It is constantly changing. As the years pass, partners are not always going to feel close or affectionate toward one another all the time. That is actually true for almost all out relationships, be it family or friends. There are times when you will be very angry at your spouse, times when you may even question why the two of you married in the first place. But then it’s a process. Getting past those rough spots is the tough part.
Then there is the big issue about "Personal space". I wont write much about it because I really don get the concept. Nor when guys say that they need their space and don’t want to do anything they don’t like, even for their better halves. And neither do I get the concept of girls when they want to do everything for and with their life partner.
Another big word that bothers me is "EXPECTATIONS"... What if your partner doesn’t meet your expectations? Worse still if you are not able to live up to his/her expectations? After all ones happiness comes from how satisfied we are with our life. And it can be totally fucked up as a result of overblown and misguided expectations. Can one be realistic enough to let go of certain expectations? And what if you do let go but your partner doesn’t?
The job will end one day, kids will grow up and leave, parents will part and friends will move on...it’s only the companionship you share with your spouse that will be with you and take you through the "not-so-fair" life. It is about staying in love and staying together for a lifetime despite the fact that both partners are individuals who change over time. The challenge is making it work for a lifetime.
And so with so many questions on my mind, I am afraid. I am afraid of marrying the wrong one, of being the wrong one myself. I am afraid of being with someone I don’t love, of marrying someone who’s not my friend, someone I can’t talk to, someone who doesn’t let me be myself. I am afraid of being the one who screws it all up, of being the one who goes wrong, of being the one who lets the other one down. And I am afraid I won’t find the "Right" partner ever. In case you can find me one that comes with a guarantee and a warrantee, do let me know, for I shall be grateful for the rest of my life :>)