Heart'n'Soul

Upon receipt of news which ruffles more than a feather or two, one feels the blood rush to the cheek and eyes. No you do not know how to handle it. You don't want to know either. You want to slip away quietly. Get out, hide your feelings and unleash the plethora of emotions on someone who will not judge. So you slip away. You do not want to be seen by anyone. No one must know what your mind is going through and the mind is not helping at all in making a secret out of it. Flushed, drained, shaky - you seek solitude. Avoiding darting glances, you stealthily find someplace you can lock yourself up in. You feel the emotions flow down. You want to talk. You want to just talk to someone who will not just get it, who will tell you that it will be okay and means it too. There's noone though. So you sink. To the floor. Telling yourself that it is okay and that it will be better. You wipe your tears. Dilute the emotions with a fake smile. You check in the mirror. Once. Twice. Wishing away the redness. Must wait somemore. The muscles they contort again, as the eyes stare deep into the reflection of the eyes. Not wishing for anything. Just wishing for nothing. Give nothing at all. No grief. No happiness. You pick it up, the sinking smile, the sinking heart, the pang of loneliness. Gulping down a glass of water, you shroud everything you feel inside, brace yourself to face the others, only to find a lonely spot soon, feel the muscles breaking away from the smile - sinking. With noone to witness it.

You survive. Not happily and satisfactorily. But you do

(Thanks Shaifali - for your contibution not just in form of words but also in form my best friend, You always know exactly how it feels)

Labels: hurt, Life, moving on, think

A LOT LIKE LOVE





Ding Dong - The huge clock tower struck 7, startling Josh as always.

He looked at the exit gate, not nervous at all… waiting for her, as the crowd started pouring out.

In this moment, he knew she would never surface from the crowd… he knew that his heart will always long for it but he will never be able to hold her again…

In this moment… he knew.

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More from the series - For Now and Forever:
For Now and Forever - I: If Only...
For Now and Forever - II: PS: I Love You
For Now and Forever - III: You've Got Mail
For Now and Forever - IV: Shall We Dance
For Now and Forever - V: A Lot Like Love
For Now and Forever - VI: As Good As It Gets
For Now and Forever - VII: Gone With The Wind
For Now and Forever - VIII: Message In A Bottle

Labels: broken heart, desire, Heart break, hurt, Letting go, Life, Love, memories, Missing you, moving on, nostalgia, romance, soul, think, want

…and the worthless drop of saline water starts it never ending journey once again, just like the last night, carrying a prayer that doesn’t reach anywhere, the one that is never answered, but the one that doesn’t dry up like its carrier.

Love - it is
For real - very much

Help Me Fall - By Mark Wills

I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely holding on
And letting go with all my might
There's a part of me that's empty
I know only love can fill
I'm afraid I'll never find it
And I'm scared to death I will

Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall

I've been holding conversations
When I haven't said a word
I've been speaking with my silence
And praying that you heard

I'm a walking contradiction
I'd hate to be my heart
It keeps trying not to love you
But it don't know where to start

Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall

I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely holding on
Letting go with all my might

Labels: bleed, broken heart, contradiction, desire, Heart break, hurt, Letting go, Life, Love, moving on, romance, soul, think, want

The success of love is in the loving—it’s not in the result of loving. Of course, it’s natural in love to want the best from the other person, but whether in turns out that way or not does not determine the value of what we have done.

I know, I know, you’ll say that when a heart breaks, it feels like frozen in the ladder of life—your emotion dries out—you feel that your world stops spinning and all of your pictures seem to fade black and white. And sadly, pleasure of love lasts for a moment, but the pain of love lasts a lifetime.

But suicide?

Maybe suicide can save us permanently from the pain but having pain isn't a temporary problem—isn't? What is suicide? Suicide is simply telling God, “No God, maybe you’re in recession but you can’t fire me—I’m quitting.”

But my friends, you are not the only person in the group who has faced this kind of ultra-loving experience. Let’s have a look:

Bill Gates’ first love, Stephanie Reichel, left him just after seven months of their relationship and married another man. She felt Gates was good for nothing. Now think, if driven by his broken heart, Bill Gates would go straight to the Seattle Tower and jump over from there? Think, how many windows of opportunities would pop up?

Charles Schulz asked his girlfriend to marry him but his girlfriend replied, “Do you think, your cartoonist profession is enough to give me what I want?” And it was that event which inspired Charles Schulz to grow up as the most widely syndicated cartoonist in the history, with work like Peanuts appearing in over 2,600 newspapers in 75 countries. Accordingly the book, “Where Are They Buried?” Charles Schulz’s income during his lifetime totaled more than $1.1 billion. He even gets enlisted amongst the “richest dead celebrity list” by Forbes magazine.

Even our own, Abhisekh Bachchan has faced more brutality when his fiancée Karishma Kapoor broke their engagement and married a “richie-goochie” man. Abhisekh’s fault? At that time, Abhisekh wasn’t enough successful to mark his own name in the industry. Did you ever feel: “Poor Abhisekh?” Come on, it was God’s master plan—maybe He thought “abhi-ash” would sound better than “abhi-kash.” You don’t have any idea of God’s karishma when he is gonna bring ashwarya in your life. Nyaah!

As per the girls are concern, there are Marie Curie, Joan Crawford and Carly S. Fiarina who have tasted the same pain too. It was Curie’s broken relationship that forced her to leave Poland. If she never left Poland and took admission to Paris University (including facing huge adversity), could she ever become the only person to win two Nobel Prizes in different science fields?

And maybe it was the ignorance from her boyfriend for being just a shipping-clerk, made Carly S. Fiorina determined and helped her to become the first women CEO for any blue-chip company.

So it happens, it happened before you, will happen after you but my friends don’t hold you back in the past and spend your memory with sugar-coated tears. Learn to live your life on the truth and keep your head high. Instead of thinking what you have lost; try thinking what you have that other person is losing.

Yes, tell me one thing what you have lost? You have lost the person whom you love most. Now think, what she(he) has lost? She(he) has lost the person who loves her(him) most, right?

Have you ever watched a crab on the shore crawling backward in search of the ocean, and missing? That’s the way our mind operates. All you need is already within you, only you must approach yourself with reverence and love. Your constantly flight from pain and search for pleasure is a sign of love you bear for yourself, so you should make love of yourself. Deny yourself nothing—glue your self-infinity and eternity and discover that you don’t need them, you are beyond.

Yes, don’t waste time thinking what you have missed rather invest that time in such way that someday that person starts thinking, “If I have had acted in EITHER way, if …”

As long as I know how to love

I know I will stay alive

I've got all my life to live

I've got all my love to give

And I'll survive

I will survive.
~ I Will Survive (Gloria Gaynor)

PS: This is a guest blog by one of my blogger friends named Roy - extremely inspiring. If you like this, then try visiting http://www.myspace.com/royarya for some more words of wisdom by him. Thanks Roy, for this awesome post, I am glad it’s on my blog and that too at this particular point of time.

Labels: alive, bleed, broken heart, Heart break, hurt, Life, Love, moving on, romance