Heart'n'Soul

Once again the sitting duck of our government and their vote bank politics in India ends up compromising India's stand and fight against terrorism. Their policy of appeasement and ambiguous take on diplomatic relations with our neighbors ends up hurting and literally killing the people within the country. What an Irony it is that the terrorists who attacked us have taken responsibility of the attacks while the authorities responsible for protecting us are not even ready to consider it as a mistake and a shortfall. They still have the audacity to defend themselves even though the last six big blasts in the country (not to mention low intensity blasts happening often) still remain unresolved.

And under such circumstances when the political will and the intent of the government is questioned, they say don’t question our will cuz we lost one of our leaders to terrorism and that it’s a ridiculous question to even ask. The fact that their own prime minister died of terrorist attack and they have still been unable to fight it clearly shows their intent and will to fight it, or shall I say – not to fight it. They say that it’s foolish to think that they want to save the govt. and not the people and that’s their really intent - well then why don’t we see it then - why is just lip service - why is the govt. not stopping what they seem to be always condemning - why is India becoming the shelter to the terrorists caught. Where is the capital punishment for them? Why is there the lack of coordination between the police that works on govt's directives and Mr. Chidambaram’s department who said that he had already passed on the information to police today??? WHAT THE HELL!!! Where is the action on the promise by the govt. after 26/11 Mumbai blasts that we will have stricter measures to protect and punish... WHERE??? WHEN???

They have apprehensions to pass a janlokpal bill that they made a 75+ years old man go on a hunger strike for over 11 days while banning a strong anti-terror law like POTA did not take much! Where were the human rights groups when Anna was fasting - yeah the same ones that cry foul when a terrorist is being killed or suspected leads are questioned. What’s a little bit of discomfort to a handful of innocent people who are questioned as compared to large numbers of innocent people being killed?

How much more time does the govt. need to build the security measures. On national TV, a spokesperson defends the govt. saying the security was everywhere except the gate where this happened and that terrorist attacks cannot be stopped by a CCTV camera since the terrorists are ready to even die. What kind of a statement is that? Is this kind of behavior even expected and acceptable on national TV by one of the so called parliamentary representatives of the ordinary people? Doesn’t it simply show that to the govt., the ordinary people just don’t matter, because the govt. is clearly busy protecting their own interests and we can go to hell for all they care.

Why are our security forces still dependent, incompetent and serving the political master. Why are we still unable to have made any progress in so many blasts in recent past like German bakery case, batla house case, Banglore blasts, other Mumbai and Delhi blasts.

A 21 year lawyer-to-be who went to collect his pass for beginning his practice, who dreamt of a colorful future, died before he could even begin painting it. An 80 year old man who was fighting his grandsons case for past so many years, who did not give up visiting the court time and again even at 80, died in vain. More nameless faces suffer every single day, the relatives of the ones who died, the ones who have lost their limbs in numerous blasts like the one that happened in Delhi today, will suffer for the rest of their lives. And what’s their fault? Their fault is being an ordinary Indian who is ruled by an extraordinary bunch of educated idiots, supported by a bigger bunch of uneducated losers.

And you wish it would end here! But no it does not, because even in the hospitals, the relatives of the dead and injured are being pushed out of the compounds and emergency wards, while the big shot politicians are gladly allowed to visit them. Will they ever learn to step aside? When will they learn that not every thing is about power! Where's that tiny bit of compassion that they could have shown today by not visiting the hospitals today? When we need to be protected they leave us alone and when we want to be left alone, they will flock to us like bees do to honey!!! What will it take to drill some sense in them??? WHAT!!!

With what has happened and what is happening w.r.t terrorism, I wonder if the terrorist are really the ones outside and attacking us or the ones inside and subjecting us to these attacks by being irresponsible, insensitive, careless and casual about this over and over and over again.

Pain, agony, anger, tears, hurt, helplessness, and loss are probably just few words that we can use to define and label today's tragedy. But it’s unfortunate to know that there seems to be no end to it. My sincere condolences to the families of the ones that died and the ones who have been injured. May god give you strength to carry on and may the souls of the deceased rest in peace.

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Innocence and trust have no value these days - do they?
I am questioning myself and answering at the same time
No - it surely does not!!!

But it is a little extreme when people will do things going all out of their way to make you trust them only with a plan to break it. OUCH! It hurts a lot. Especially when you have to literally pay a bomb for it, like an atom bomb worth of real money. Till today it had never been a concern for me. I have never valued money over people or over general state of being sane. I would rather spend money and not bother about it then being in a mentally disturbed or depressed state - be it myself or someone I know - money was never above people. And hold on - I am not talking about the usual shopping and chocolate indulgence women use for mood lift! I am talking about travelling with friends, catching up with an old friend even if thy are in a different city, Making loooooong calls, joining a class, going for a drive - cuz they need it or cuz i need it- things which are decently expensive to not so expensive but keep my or my friend's general happiness in day to day life intact and hence help us being sane.

This time around though, even that hasn’t help, even though I am totally bankrupt now.... I don’t know what to believe - that money is important, cuz I suddenly have none or that mental sanity is still more important, which doesn’t prevail right now since I don’t seem to comprehend till date what happened and why and of course how even with all my money gone, I am actually more distressed! Yeah I am worried about my bank balance for a change!!!!

And it’s not just that – it’s also about people. What do I do? Do I stop believing and trusting in people? To not believe anyone who I meet and question even people who I think as good friends? Cuz people who did what they did were also supposedly good friends!!! SO if I am duh and naive enough to not being able to judge people well, then how do I know that the people I trust are actually trustworthy? So do I just suddenly start disbelieving and doubting everyone, cuz people change and will obviously never tell you what they really have in mind!!!

At the same time there are people who have been there for me pretty much... Abhi, Sud, Nicks, Mads, Surs, Fali, Arjun.... and they are not acquaintances; they are not someone I happened to know... they are people I can rely on... But weren’t they also acquaintances once... its because I thot of them as potential good friends that I talked to them and then as great people that is why they became close friends. So if I stop believing, I won’t meet more people like these and will completely cut myself from any potential goodness left in the world!

I don’t know, this is all so confusing. I don’t have it in myself to look forward to meeting new people anymore. I am done with that nonsense. I think I am too old to meet new people and get stuck in some more bullshit just cuz even at this age I tend to trust people. I should not. I WILL NOT I RESOLVE!

SO yeah trust is overrated and I seemed to have discoverd it the hard way. There is no value to it. We can trust someone as much as we want and they will still screw it from all sides possible. Sometimes even if they have proven other wise... So just like each day is new, the equation that we have with other people is also renewed. Today they maybe extremely trustworthy and tomorrow the bang opposite. We will never see the other side of a person, the ugly one more often than not, till they chose us the lucky winner. And in my case I seem to be winning that a lot these days.

What to do such is the breed called Homo sapiens! And I am too black and white to deal with it, so as usual I shall deem it all black and I am outta it...

And for that thing called trust, here are my last words to you:-

Dear Trust

Well I shall hope to see you sometime, it was good to know you but extinction is quite a hazard. I know I have used you too much and have completely spent you on silliest of people and I know I run the risk of not trusting someone worthy anymore, but oh what the hell!!! Being proven wrong this time around would actually be a super delight as compared to the other way round as a practice and being let down by everyone. Goodbye trust.

Will try dealing with your half sister called expectations the same way and hopefully say the same to her soon

Till then.. Whatever!
Div

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