Heart'n'Soul
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
To the end and beyond
For all the letters I wrote and can never send
For all the calls that will never get through
For all the conversations that we never had
For all the times I felt uncared for
For all the times I have been misunderstood
For all those nights that I have cried myself to sleep
I wish you were here to hold my hand and take me through this thing called life when I seem to have lost my way and can not fathom the truth. When I can not differentiate between what’s right and what’s wrong… cuz my thoughts are obscured by my emotions and my vision is blurred by my tears.
I wish you were here to end this nothingness, this overwhelming solitude. It’s a whirlwind of emotions inside but I still feel so numb...cuz I don’t have you to share it with.
I seem to have no answer anymore, cuz you my friend are never coming back. It’s been six years now, and I still can’t seem to come to terms with the loss. Something always feels amiss, a void that makes me feel empty inside.
For all the calls that will never get through
For all the conversations that we never had
For all the times I felt uncared for
For all the times I have been misunderstood
For all those nights that I have cried myself to sleep
I wish you were here to hold my hand and take me through this thing called life when I seem to have lost my way and can not fathom the truth. When I can not differentiate between what’s right and what’s wrong… cuz my thoughts are obscured by my emotions and my vision is blurred by my tears.
I wish you were here to end this nothingness, this overwhelming solitude. It’s a whirlwind of emotions inside but I still feel so numb...cuz I don’t have you to share it with.
I seem to have no answer anymore, cuz you my friend are never coming back. It’s been six years now, and I still can’t seem to come to terms with the loss. Something always feels amiss, a void that makes me feel empty inside.
Losing you and dealing with it has been one hell of a torture, one that will never end. I don’t think I will ever be able to completely recover from this loss and there will always be those moments when nothing will be enough...just like today!And I still try to smile, cuz you wanted me to. I still try believing in people, cuz you asked me to.
You have taught me how to be a friend in true sense of the word... How to never take anyone for granted...How to care unconditionally...How to be there always...How to be trustworthy... But there’s is one thing that you did not teach me - how to be without you. How to care about myself cuz I never had to and cuz no one else seems to care enough.
And so, I miss the hug that used to make me feel like I am the most precious person on this earth. I miss that smile that acted like sunshine every time my life was shadowed by the dark gloomy clouds. I miss my strongest shoulder to cry on and the warmth that told me that there is someone who will always love me and need me. I miss those pep talks that made me believe that nothing can ever go wrong,
And you know what Kev...till you went; nothing ever went wrong...And since you have left, nothing has ever been right. I miss you a lot and I always will. And as much as I know I can’t do anything to get you back, I would do anything to see you just one more time.
Love Always
D
Labels: Missing you
35 Comments:
Take care girl. Emotions play a lot when you think alone and it hurts. Sometimes take the good things what you learnt and keep moving.
That was really touching !!
@Priya - so true,,,,but wt do u do whn its no ones fault...wt do u do when evrythn is exactly how u want and god wakes u upto reality by snatchin away your best frnd....forever...its just hrd n sumtimes its not bearable
thnks for the encouragin words
@Arun - glad u liked it
Really touching!!
Beautifully written.
If you really want to see someone, just wait and you'll see them
That's so heartrending dear.A loved one's loss can never be replaced.
Is he the one you told me about in a comment on one of my posts?
Take care sweetie.Our loved ones are always with us wherever we go.Plethora of Hugs to you!
Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
I dont know what to say
...............
but yes I felt something
:(
i am short of words ..i hope it doesn't happen wid me at least ..or wid anyone in the world ...u seem so low ...!!
but dun wrry ..life is not for all u dun have it's all about u have !!
so njoi it wid other thngs and try to 4get it for the sake of gud !
thats something they say time will heal but it wont unless you let the time heal it... Nobody can ever replace someone we lost but you can collect all the good memories and things you learned, take them with you and move on.. Though i guess this post might be just a reflection of a phase you are going through at a certain time point... Sometimes we miss them more than ever but then it again seems all right.. until the next such phase catches with us.
you take care, girl
you are as strong as needed to deal with your own emotions :)
coming to terms with the truth and letting go is the only way to peace.. if only it were that easy.
I wish you find the strength to get over it, and look back at it just like one of those sweet dreams..
take care, div..
*hugs*
such a b'ful one...dis s my 1st visit 2 ur blog...n m sure i ll b dere 2 read all ur up coming post..:)
Dis is amazing... I cud feel every line...
and dis one ws too gud yaa..
"And I still try to smile, cuz you wanted me to."
Hey... amazing...this kinda reminds me of my previous post.."letter to X".....
it's tough to let go
Div HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGZ!
Sometimes we lose ppl to make us realise BIGGER things in life. And it seems so unfair but life has a way of taking something to give something else in return. Both r precious. Th one taken is a loved-one, and the one given to u is a lesson. Not as in a harsh lesson, but the experience makes u value the ppl u hv in life even more.
This was a tearjerker dahlin...Im sure ur friend is watching over ya and smiling now...
Keshi.
Pain...
It is a rare language..
like the primal cry..so true..
i could feel the nailing..
it hurt.
take care..
as Lao Tzu said
"this too will pass"
smile
MIP
Hi...coming here for the 1st time...
Hey that was really good...loved reading...keep writing..
also ur layout s impressive
P.S: Do visit my blog...hope u like my latest post
Where can I get my hand on this Kev and knock some sense into him? Mail him this poem. He will come running back to you.. Else I will just have to drag him back.. *Sigh*
The world is an unfair place Div darling... *HUGS*
He will come back to his senses, after all you are probably the best thing that ever happened to him.. And if he still doesn't come back, he doesn't deserve you hon!!
You cheer up.. No one is worth your tears. If they make you cry, let them go..
>:D<
@Aneesh - thnks :-)
but unfortunately thr r some ppl u nvr get to see again :(
@Sam - true, irreplacebale :)
and yes its the same person--my best friend ever
thnks for the gud darling....felt so much better :)
@Peter - thnks for droppin by
i hope it dosnt happen with anyone either
and yes i do enjoy life and other things I have...just one of those
days otherwise u will mostly find me in a good mood :)
@Lena - thnks girl...true its just a phase and dont ya worry, i am
alrady bouncing back
back to being the happy chirpy myself...lol
@Usha - thnks a lot Usha, this one for my best friend ever who expierd some 6 years back
Just cant hell miss him badly some times and this time decided to pour it out
@Pooja- hey thks for droppin by. glad u liked it
@Debashish - thnks...and ues i really do try to be myself cuz thts wht
my best frind wanted me to be...always :)
@Akshay - hey, thnks for droppin by n shall catch up on ur post
soon...but this was for my best frnd whos no more n not for an X...lol
@Gazal - yes it is, especially if you have shared 18 years of life with someone!!!
@Keshi - thnks keshi...needed tht Hug i guess. missin on ur blog,,,,will be home tomorrow and read up on it...promise :)
and ya, i know he is watchin over me....it was just one of those days when it felt like he is not!!!
@Man in Painting - thnks for droppin by, and yes i am takin care :)
@Rajesh - thnks for visitin :)
shall visit u tomorrow, on a vaccation...one cafe in the whole of dalhousie so just catchin up!!!
@Ani - hey wish u cud do tht...he was my best frnd for 18 yrs...he passed away 6 yrs back :(
thnks for the hug...u all so sweet n make me feel do much better :)
Wonderful...lovly....it touches heart...also it tells about ur situations...
nice posting...
Cheers
Sandy
Oh!!! Yah :(
I never thought about that!! :(
@Sandy - thnks for droppin by
glad u liked it :)
@Aneesh - its ok sweetie...lifes is like tht only :)
You are always welcome dear!Nice to have you back sweetie :)
Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Divkiran
What a piece of writing..!
I was so involved with those words compelling me to read it twice more..!! Missing someone forever is painful...and you had written it nicely..
~~But there’s is one thing that you did not teach me - how to be without you. How to care about myself cuz I never had to and cuz no one else seems to care enough~~
I loved those..!!
I just wish u learn to live with his memories..!!
@Vinu
Glad u liked it so much tht u read it twice....for change this was more like ventin out thn wrtitn sumthn i feel bout and so feels good tht so many ppl still connect to it...I am learnin, cuz like i always say, have no other option but to live so y not smile n do it
@Sam---thnks madame...by the way i nvr went newhr, was readin up through mobile but cudnt post or comment :)
Sigh!!!
I have no words for this, i have seen n felt the frndshp u guys shared... but in ur words D - we have no other option
:(
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