Thursday, November 1, 2007
I broke it yet AGAIN!!
But looks like moms have some connection or some kinda telepathy with God...and of all the things, they stopped the metros from going fwd and i had to come back though i din wan to. Even then i stayed at the metro station for bout 15-20 minutes thinkin bout wt to do, if i shud take an auto and go or if i should just go back cuz its not just wt mum wants but also cuz tht wud be safer. I called back my group mates again n well not many ppl turned up n the class was cancelled... well god sure listens to mom and makes sure she gets her way
Must sound foolish to most ppl but thn isnt thr a very thin line b/w passion and madness. I don know n i don care cuz dance is one thing i feel most passionately about. I can leave anything and everything for it. But then life is not perfect is it? Most ppl who know me well will be sayin "look whos talkin" cuz i guess i hav trouble acceptin stuff tht i don deserve but then like all, i gotta live with it too...and i am not ashamed anymore to admit that finally i am learnin to accept it and not be an escapist. Anyway, I cant make dance my profession cuz i have a weak foot and i cant dance for more than 2-3 hours and so i clearly can not do more than a hobby class.
It hurts...n i don mean just the foot(bad joke i know!)...it hurts everytime i see one of my fellow classmates makin it big and becomin splendid stage performers. Not that i am jealous...nah...just wanna be one of them and maybe even better. I know i could be only if i wud have listened to the doc. I opened my plaster 3 days before it was supposed to be opened and well, got back to dancin without proper rest. Too much enthu dosnt always help...and so i landed in myself in a permanent foot trouble and no scope of a dancing career.
Why do i write this, well cuz i broke my foot yet AGAIN. Huh n thts soooooooo me!!!
But i will never give up on dancin....cuz even this doesnt matter. My guru n my idol Shiamak says - have feet will dance...so dance i shall. I may not dance on a stage, but dance i will. I may not become a professional, but yeah baby...i will perform for myself. I will dance for myself cuz it makes ME happy. And dance i shall cuz its me...and so dear readers, i shall be partyin saturday night with a broken foot...i guess the sexy heels will have to stay in the cupboard and i will wear the boring flats. Nevrthless, i am gonna rock the dance floor!!!